April 23rd, 2011

Yellow Brick Road

I Need To Speak Up

This has been gnawing at my mind for a little while, so it's time I posted about it.

This is the internet.  But behind the computer sits a person.  Who has very real feelings and emotions.  I'm one of them.  In fact, I often have a lot of feelings and emotions.  That's probably one of my flaws at times.  But I'm getting slightly sidetracked here.  I come on the internet, to relax and have fun, and chat with people who have similar interests with me.  Whether that be on Twitter, Ravelry, or even Livejournal itself.  

I do not come on the internet to be pushed around, by people who think they seem to be better than I am.  And I am so tired of it.  

As many of you know, I'm a role player on Twitter.  I'll be upfront and say that one of my many accounts is Admiral Piett. ((And if you're wanting to follow that account, send me a message, I'd be happy to follow you)) Last year, I had some problems with a few different people.  I guess our differences got in the way or something.  But once I came back this summer, after have having my computer down for awhile, I discovered that someone had made a blog, making fun of my character.  And I'm about 99.99% it was at least one of these people.  I tried to shrug it off, but deep down, it hurt.  And so it went a few month, no problems at all.  And then a few weeks ago, some bot was created, so that every time my Piett mentions someone, it will retweet my tweet, making some comment at what a bad role player I am.  And I'm not for certain it's tied to any of these people, but I wouldn't put it past myself if it was.  You know, this really hurts.  Because I'm not a bad role player.  Am I perfect?  No.  No one is a perfect role player, hell, no one is perfect in general.  But it really cuts me pretty deep.  Because I know I have good skills, and pretty much everyone else likes me, and thinks I'm a pretty good role player.  And I know I'm a good role player.  But still, it hurts.  

I'm also a member of Ravelry, which is a knit and crochet community.  I'm part of a Dancing with the Stars group.  And some random person decided that it was ok to go through and "disagree" with my posts.  The ones they were starting to disagree with were ones of me saying hi to someone.  Then it started to be every post.  And then it started to grow into another group, were someone was disagreeing with posts, where we don't normally use the disagree buttons.  

And recently, some RP friends from Twitter have gotten their accounts hacked there and on here. 

And then there's other accounts on Twitter, that are incurring some problems.

And I just wonder why.  Why do people go around feeling the need to look down on people and harass them to make themselves feel better?  I was picked on throughout middle school and high school.  Just because I was bigger and because I've got a quirky personality.  And if you look around, you'll notice that most of the population isn't skinny.  And everyone has their quirks.  I just don't understand it.  Do you bullies no what you make us feel like everytime you put us down?  Do you know what it's like to lie awake at night or go through out the day with being pushed around, always on the back of your mind?  I'm just so frustrated.  And I'm so tired of seeing innocent people getting picked on for doing NOTHING, other than being themselves.  You aren't above anyone because you decide to pick on someone.  That just makes you sad.  Because it's NOT OK!  It's not ok to push others around.  It's not ok to harass others.  It's not ok to put others down.  It's not ok to create accounts to call out other peoples drama on Twitter.  It's not ok to create bots that harass others on Twitter.  It's not ok to hack others accounts.  It's just NOT OK!  And I don't know why people think it is. 

I'm speaking up because I'm tired of being pushed around.  And I have a voice.  And I want to be heard.  And I want others to know they have a voice, and they can be heard too.  That you don't have to take it.  Speak up.  Tell others that it isn't ok.  Don't be afraid to stand up for yourself.  You deserve to be heard.  Bullying gets taken so far at times, too far.  Don't let it get to that point.  Know that you do matter, and you always have the voice to say NO!  ITS NOT OK! Never doubt yourself.  

I know I'm not the only one out there that's being bullied by others on the internet.  So please pass this on to others who are having a hard time too.  Know that there's others out there, that who are being hurt, and know that we also know it's not ok.  And please know, that if anyone needs to talk, I'm just a message away.

Speak up!

Pass it on!